Blog-a-palooza

I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately and i noticed that everyone seems to have something going on in their life right now… something is stressing them out for some reason… Kids, school, work, bills, family, injury, relationships. etc… the list goes on.  I am a strong believer that blogging can be very theraputic… you can vent and let things out in a blog that you normally couldn’t say to people.  I was very taken aback when several people told me that they had read it and it meant something to them… i was shocked… i had to go back and reread it to even remember what all was said, because it was written off the cuff… Most of that it was stuff that i wouldn’t say to people but when you blog, there is this feeling that you aren’t really saying it to anyone, you are just putting it out there and if anyone cares to hear your rant, complaint, comment, whine, or whatever it may be, its right there for them to peruse… i think that its strange to think about, putting your private thoughts out for people to read, things that you sometimes wouldn’t otherwise say out loud.  it gives great insight to peoples minds.  which is kinda scary sometimes… so to everyone out there that is having some stress in your life: Blog it.. it makes you feel so much better… With that in mind…

I have been thinking lately about trust.  Trust is a great concept.  It says you don’t screw me and I won’t screw you.  Trust is a very hard thing to give and a very hard thing to find.  Most of you know my trust was shaken in a very good friend and now I am trying to find it in myself to trust some people again… I don’t know if they are sincere or if there is an ulterior motif of some kind.  I don’t know, just my brain being stupid.  Sometimes I feel like everyone around me knows some secret and no one is telling me… it’s a phobia of mine… i hate being out of the loop.  I don’t like to feel like i am missed something, ya know?